My husband and I were on vacation last month and we couldn’t wait to check out the church next to our hotel. However, our one year old had different plans than us. In my dream world, Paxton would have fallen asleep in my ergo carrier while I stood during worship & stayed asleep during the message while snuggling on my chest. Yeah, that didn’t happen.
When my favorite song was playing Pax decided it was a good idea to cry until he was taken out of the carrier so that he could run around the church. When the cries became a distraction to those around us, he and I went into the church lobby to hang out.
I remember feeling so alone as if I was missing out on something great since I wasn’t able to be in the church service.
Then I looked down at my son and instantly realized that being this baby’s mama was entirely great and if I wasn’t careful what I really would be missing out on are moments where I am able to be Paxton’s comforter. I have learned that feeling alone is just a lie we believe due to having the wrong perspective.
The great experiences I get to have in this season of life are the moments I love my son and meet his needs. The world around us tells mom’s that we are missing out on life because of our children; but really we would be missing out if we didn’t soak in every moment we can while our children are young.
To the mama who feels alone, just remember though the season feels long right now it’ll be gone before you know it. Enjoy all the moments you can because you won’t look back and wish you went out more, you will look back and wish you could snuggle more.
I do believe that it is good to have your own outlet to refuel yourself. We just need to make sure we keep perspective and remind ourselves of the precious and crucial times in our little one’s life. Mamas and babies have a special bond that can’t be replaced.
Being Paxton’s mama is too great for me to miss out on and I am not alone.